It doesn't matter who you are and what path you've followed in your life; you've made an excuse for something. By definition, an excuse is to seek to justify or defend. Whether it was a small or big one, it doesn't matter, we are all members of the club.
 Alcoholism causes many excuses to come out. We look for reasons to drink. Then we look for reasons to cover up our drinking. "I know I shouldn't have said that, I was drunk", "I didn't know what I was doing", "whiskey makes me mean", "I promise it'll never happen again". This cycle can carry on for a long time, sometimes our whole life. It may not be severe or ever cause any permanent damage, but it may eventually cause some of us to sink to our rock bottom, like it did to me.    Sobriety teaches us to quit making excuses. We ended up where we did because of what happens when we consume large amounts of alcohol, drugs or a combo of the two.  Nothing anybody said or did caused us to act the way we did. We were in the drivers seat the whole time. The problem was that eventually the car was going too fast and went off the cliff. We were powerless and it caught up with us. This doesn't mean we were a lost cause. With a lot of help from others that had travelled the path before us, we are able to pick up the pieces and start over. And whatever form of recovery you choose, you have that power given to you. YOU have the power to make yourself the best person you can be. But you can't make excuses when times get tough. And they will because let's face it, life is tough. When you want to drink that beer, go to a meeting. When you want to light that joint, call someone who can help you. Don't use the excuse that you were too weak. Don't say "I couldn't help it."  You can do it if you work hard enough. Being in recovery is the hardest thing you will ever do. It'll test you daily and it will make you want to throw in the towel. If being alcoholics/addicts caused us to make an excuse for our behavior, sobriety will want us to make just as many, or more. If you can find the way to get through all that, then life can be one of the most wonderful things you ever experienced. You'll feel good on the outside and you'll feel even better on the inside.  We all have different ways of doing it. I live in a very small town. I get one meeting per week unless I travel. Instead of using that as a negative, I find the positivity in that. I have to work that much harder with my sponsor and my support system to keep on the straight and narrow. I feel good because every morning when I wake up, I am proud that I made it to another new day sober. And really, it's the little things that count. I used to have this theory that after a certain amount of time of sobriety, I'd have this big awakening and everything would be smooth sailing.  That isn't true at all.  Alcohol is there, every single day. I see it, I see others drink it, I think about it. I just know now that I can't drink it. Because then I'll have to start making excuses again. Ryan Lake1/31/16